Live in moment~I Sweared

I am

anormal mid age married

woman，

I have ajob， but I am

not promoted for 8 years

。

I have

2kids

。

Everyday I have to work

hours， and spend

hours to take care of my kids。

SometimesI feel

my life is hard, hopeless.

Even so， I still want to have an

exciting,passionate, energized

life。

Actually，I did try to get some suggestion from someone else。

She is my grandmother.

She was so great woman， I do admire her， even she has already gone for 2 years。

She had

4 children, 10 grandkids, 11 grandkids’ kids

。

Whenever her

birthday

came。

A big big family

birthday party

would be held。

Whenever her kids， grandkids said

“happy birthday”

to her， she always smiled happily，she thought she was the happiest woman in the world。

Outside people always praised my family is

a harmony, model family.

But， at the

ending 2 years

of her life。

She

got sick

。

Cannot move, cannot speak, cannot eat, finally cannot breath.

In the final 2 years of her life， my antes， my uncles， my dad and mom， argue to each other day by day， just to escape from the responsibility of taking care of that dying old woman。

The most harmony model family has gone;

The final moment remain in my dearest grand mother’s eyes is argument and pain.

I cannot accept this fact.

I love my grandmother, she’s so kind heart woman, she never think about herself, she dedicatedall her life to our family.

She had a good beginning, why can’t she have a good ending.

She deserved a better life.

So， I learnt from my grandmother’s life that：

A good beginning not means we will have a good ending.

Life will change, we can not control our life.

So, I have to live in moment.

I sweared， I will spend all my life to love my life。

I sweared for what?

Let me introduce for you。

I.S.W.E.A.R.E.D

I:instrument.

I always dream to there is one day， a handsome guy will play guitar and sing love song for me。 Of course， Inever have such chance。 Why not play myself and create romantic moment formyself？

So， Ireally like to learn to play some instrument， just love myself

S: Sing

。

I can not sing well。 But I still like and keep singing。 Because it really makeme relax。

W:Write.

I can not live without write。 Because I have sensitive brain， easilyinteract with people’s emotion， if I can not write it down I will haveheadache。 Writing is good medicine to heal my headache。

E:Express.

2 years ago， when I stood on public speech stage first time。 I could not open mymouth。 I was frustrated so much。 One of the membered comfort me。 He said he hassame personality with me， introvert silent style， but he is also expressivetype， these 2 personalities do not conflict。 After that I did proof that I amalso an introvert but expressive personality。 I did better and better on thestage。

A:appreciate.

I do appreciate to all my life。 I used to be hurt but I am healed，I used to be lost， but I am found。 All the past bad experience will finallycount in to my fortune。 I believe。